Hey JZH! How goes the job search? How is Anacortes treating you? Is it raining too much?
Here, we are in the middle of a bout of really nice weather. Well, the weather is always pretty nice here. Sunny most days, though we've had some rain. It's supposed to start snowing around this time of year, but no sign of it yet. I am dreading it, really. I'm out here in bufu already. I don't need a snow storm to make me REALLY feel isolated. Gagh.
Right now I'm just biding my time. These days we are really slow (remiscent of September at KFT) so I'm bored bored bored. I'm bored at work (I'm writing this email from the desk -- at LEAST we can use the internet thank God) and then I'm bored after work because there's not a lot to do then either. La dee da. It could be a lot worse though. The people here are in large part pleasant, though it's like..I think most of the ones I would really relate to aren't here, because they're in school or doing something productive during the year. So the only ones left over are kind of the dumb ones who have no direction in their lives. Know what I mean? I think you do. I mean there are some older people here that make me think like, woa, I hope I'M not still doing this when I'm 35..or 28 for that matter.
But whatever. Time is going by...After New Year's I get to go home for a month, then back in February, and we'll start picking up. And then I have to wait until like MARCH to find out about grad school! Gagh! I hate this feeling that all I'm doing is waiting, waiting..like I'm not growing or something. Because I always try to be learning something no matter what I do...but I'm sure I'm learning SOMETHING, just not sure what.
I feel pretty alone here..that kind of sucks. There isn't like, any one person that I really can talk to, though I have lots of aquaintances, know what I mean? I was good friends with this girl Rose, but she left, alas. I don't want this email to sound like I'm not having a good time though. It is a unique experience out here, and I love having unique experiences..stuff that most people NEVER do. And this would be one of them, yes. Maybe when it snows it'll be cool. Feel all homey and cozy. It probably will be like that. Until I freeze my hands off putting the chains on my car and doing a 360 on the road trying to get out of here..that won't be too much fun. Heh.
Are you still thinking about going to Alaska this summer again? Me, I don't know. I think it would be more likely at this point that I stay here, for a variety of reasons. Assuming I DO get accepted to a school, I will need to look for apartments and stuff, and if I'm here I could actually go look at them and get a better idea. Also, I'm afraid if I went back to Seward that I would be really sad because everything would remind me of Seth..this could be very unhealthy for me. I think maybe we are moving towards being friends right now, but I'm not sure how that's going to work out. I don't really see the point in being friends. But I still want him in my life. So what can I do?
Here, we are in the middle of a bout of really nice weather. Well, the weather is always pretty nice here. Sunny most days, though we've had some rain. It's supposed to start snowing around this time of year, but no sign of it yet. I am dreading it, really. I'm out here in bufu already. I don't need a snow storm to make me REALLY feel isolated. Gagh.
Right now I'm just biding my time. These days we are really slow (remiscent of September at KFT) so I'm bored bored bored. I'm bored at work (I'm writing this email from the desk -- at LEAST we can use the internet thank God) and then I'm bored after work because there's not a lot to do then either. La dee da. It could be a lot worse though. The people here are in large part pleasant, though it's like..I think most of the ones I would really relate to aren't here, because they're in school or doing something productive during the year. So the only ones left over are kind of the dumb ones who have no direction in their lives. Know what I mean? I think you do. I mean there are some older people here that make me think like, woa, I hope I'M not still doing this when I'm 35..or 28 for that matter.
But whatever. Time is going by...After New Year's I get to go home for a month, then back in February, and we'll start picking up. And then I have to wait until like MARCH to find out about grad school! Gagh! I hate this feeling that all I'm doing is waiting, waiting..like I'm not growing or something. Because I always try to be learning something no matter what I do...but I'm sure I'm learning SOMETHING, just not sure what.
I feel pretty alone here..that kind of sucks. There isn't like, any one person that I really can talk to, though I have lots of aquaintances, know what I mean? I was good friends with this girl Rose, but she left, alas. I don't want this email to sound like I'm not having a good time though. It is a unique experience out here, and I love having unique experiences..stuff that most people NEVER do. And this would be one of them, yes. Maybe when it snows it'll be cool. Feel all homey and cozy. It probably will be like that. Until I freeze my hands off putting the chains on my car and doing a 360 on the road trying to get out of here..that won't be too much fun. Heh.
Are you still thinking about going to Alaska this summer again? Me, I don't know. I think it would be more likely at this point that I stay here, for a variety of reasons. Assuming I DO get accepted to a school, I will need to look for apartments and stuff, and if I'm here I could actually go look at them and get a better idea. Also, I'm afraid if I went back to Seward that I would be really sad because everything would remind me of Seth..this could be very unhealthy for me. I think maybe we are moving towards being friends right now, but I'm not sure how that's going to work out. I don't really see the point in being friends. But I still want him in my life. So what can I do?
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